Goh "Please take me for Granted" Junwei
Sunday, August 30, 2009, it's 10:42 PM.
Yeah..u can call me by that name. Its like what the hell..am I such a nice guy that people can just take me for granted? Not feeling ok, ask ya how r ya feeling..then gimme some stupid remarks. Another one happy happy " hey Junwei..how's everything? Can gimme a ride?" Do you wanna know how is everything for me or do you just want a damn ride home?
The ultimate one..kau..I don't even wanna write it out. So darn pissed. Those who went with me to Macs last night should know what I'm referring to. Janan said " I really don't know what to say.." Tell me about me..I simply CANNOT believe it..SENSELESS is a nicer word for it..I definitely did not use SENSELESS last night..
Don't even understand why am I writing all these..does anybody even bothers reading? Oh well..I just need a channel to vent all the frustrations that has been building inside. From work to API to church to people. Feel like simply retreating into the shell and keep to myself. Of course showing the happy-go-lucky facade will still be applicable because it's what everybody wants to see. Junwei is happy..he is doing quite well..found a job within like weeks of graduating..job provides nice environment and prospects, has a car, has a girlfriend, serving in church, doing API, taking care of some of the younger ones..PERFECT! HAPPY! Think again..happy endings only happen in story books..really old school story books at that..
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Anyway, something encouraging is the response to our church's Open Air Rally at Charis. The attendance was really good by our standards, not by some mega standards if you know what I mean. The speakers were good. The gospel band was great. Learnt something from the way Sam played. Jaz's singing is really good! Improved so much from when she first started doing presentation. Her solo of Amazing Grace was superb! Both English & Chinese versions! Hah! And she was still so worried about her Chinese part. And Pastor Chiang's sharing was really done with lots of conviction. You could literally "feel" his conviction for God and the compassion he had for the lost! I don't know how to describe. It was just really good!
So now we have around 10 weeks before the 2nd leg at Crystal starts. Let's just pray that the response and outcome will be just as good if not better. =)
Feel like some schizo when I'm writing this post. But oh well..really disappointed with a few people around me. But at the same time, on a lighter note, I'm really encouraged by the outcome of the rally. Good night!
